It’s been a couple of months since I get drunk. And since I saw people from my past. And my friends keep on telling me that i should approach that particular guy. The guy who once played everything far and beyond that’s in me. But little did they know is that he’s gone. That a few days after he left, I burned some of those memories about him and left something for my ego and pride to devour. It’s not the bitterness nor the hate that I feel towards him. I just learned that I don’t need to put ashes in my mouth again.
I was chatting with this friend of mine and then i asked him if he was already dating again. He said yes, or maybe yes. Is she a schoolmate? He answered politely, no, i don’t go for girls of my age. I was about to ask him again but then he continued: i don’t want to be in a relationship who’s more immature than me, trust me, i know what I am looking for. I said, that’s cool buddy, at least you have this standard on to what you are looking for. So that’s how the conversation ended. I just realized that he’s only eighteen and I am twenty-one yet I am more immature than him. He already knows what he is actually looking for wherein i am still stuck to wilderness hooking up to whoever is available. The way I take things and the way I handle them, the way I decide, it is all so sudden, selfish and without even thinking about what happens next. What does it takes to be mature, to be able to leave the childish behavior and to act like a real man? To be a man, you need to be responsible to everything you do. It is to take responsibility over the things you decide. Well, uhmm, whatever, i don’t think that i am making any sense. I should come up with a better answer tomorrow.
Disclaimer: reposted from my multiply. This article is not a self-made.
Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the person of deeds and not for the person of words for you will find rewarding happiness not only with someone you love but someone who loves you as well. The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being. To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may have found peace in just loving someone from distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don’t have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me; you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose that love doesn’t mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you and when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime. “When I lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more for someday, I can love someone the way that I loved you but you will never be loved the way that I did.”
Someone asked me a question specifically about trust. His question is: Would you still trust the very same person who hurt you several times before? Just like when a dog bites you, would still trust the dog?
I replied: Philosophically, i will not give that person the very same trust that i gave him. But still, i will, somehow. I do believe that we always have the chance and the choice in doing something. That person will not hurt you without reason and there will always be what we call repercussion. Just like the dog, it will not bite its master unless you hurt it.
He said: So i read “chances”, by giving second chance, that does also mean you have the reason to waste the first one?
And that really makes sense to me, and instead, i replied: “No, what i said is that we always have the chance and choice. They both work together. When you have the chance, you will make a choice. It will be then depends on what you choose, whether you waste the trust given to you or not.”